Camming Down the Rabbit Hole Ch. 11

Back at my computer I logged in and posted messages saying that I was taking a few days off to sort some things out, that I would let them know when I would be back and thanked them for all their support. I couldn’t even be bothered to edit last night’s footage, I simply uploaded the whole thing so that it would hopefully keep them satisfied.

Not long after I’d shut everything down and made myself a cup of tea slumping on the sofa, mulling over my options and trying to figure out what I wanted to do. Whilst idly scrolling Instagram my phone buzzed in my hand as a WhatsApp message from Ellie popped up. “Hiya, how’s it going, hope everything’s OK, what you up to?” I grinned at the phone, my heart instantly beating a little quicker.

I fired back “Hi Ellie good to hear from you, I’m not too bad, got some news about work which not what I expected, they offered me a promotion! But it is a lot to take in, not sure what to do. How about you?” and I sat looking at my phone waiting for her to reply like a puppy staring at a treat.

Almost instantly my phone pinged and she replied “oh that sounds great though, much better than being made redundant lol” and I paused, I wanted to tell her everything, but at the same time it all might be a bit much, my situation wasn’t exactly a run of the mill thing, I had so much to think about, it was such a big decision. I started to type a reply, then deleted it. Then started another and deleted that. I didn’t know what to say, for the first time in ages, my usual confidence had evaporated, the way I used to feel in these kinds of situations came flooding back and I just didn’t know what to write.

My phone buzzed again and a short message from her simply read “wanna chat?” I looked at it, and couldn’t move, totally frozen, shit. I should call her, it would make me feel better at the very least. But what would I say? I can’t tell her everything, I liked what we had going on too much.

Moments later the decision was out of my control as her name lit up the screen with an incoming call, I couldn’t avoid it now, there was no way I could ditch it. I had to answer. Nervously I swiped the screen and lifted it to my hear. “Hey Ellie” I chimed in what I hoped was a cheerful tone, she immediately picked me up on it and asked what was going on.